It's been a while. Funny how having a job changed my blogging schedule. Life is good. I really hope I get paid tomorrow. I signed up for direct deposit and we get paid weekly, so I got both a paper check and a deposit last week, but I wonder if the deposit was the paper check I would've gotten Monday. If so, I don't know if I'll be getting anything tomorrow. Guess I'll have to find out.
Beyond that, NEDA (Debate) Nationals were a couple of weekends ago. I opted to debate alone again, and made it to semi-finals. Not bad, I guess. Now I'm toying with the idea of changing my division next year. Going to Varsity would be interesting. It's less fun to watch, but debate isn't exactly a spectators event anyway. The idea is appealing for now, we'll see what's going on next year though.
Finding new roommates sucks. Big time. Both of the girls I live with now will be leaving (instead of just one) so I have to find two new roommates quickly. I don't know what happens if I don't. I found out about this a bit too late though. Everyone has already signed their leases for the most part, so things aren't looking to great. It'll work itself out though.
The campus rep job is going pretty well so far. The only issue is trying to find ways to fill hours. We've done a couple of workshops already, but not much else. I got into the game late, but for some reason I'm planning everything, reserving everything, and learning everything while the guy who's had the job since January just sits back and does nothing. He's been to focused on us just setting up tables at Greek events (which don't start until April) to put any energy into this job. I'll admit, he's got a lot on his plate, and our big responsibilities don't hit until Orientation, but still. This is ridiculous. Maybe he just needs time though.
Life is good. I'm hungry right now, but life is good :-)
(Side note: My academic advisor asked me to work in her research lab next year! I'll finally be getting some real experience in my major. I was questioning whether I made the right choice going into Psych, the invitation to be a part of this lab was just the boost I needed. I've seen a lot of my peers get internships lately, but they're not too easy to come across in my field. Now, I've got something pretty close to one. Life is good.)
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Bored
People, in general, bore me. Recently I had to take a long look in the mirror and think about some stuff. During Nationals for debate I spent a lot of time with one of the new females on the team. We weren't partners or anything so everybody seemed to notice the time we were spending together. Eventually the spectators decided to become commentators and told this girl that all I wanted to do was have sex with her. She didn't buy anything they were saying and told me about it. I was pissed, these are supposed to be my friends and they're saying things like this behind my back? That's not how friends treat each other. It hurt because of how close I've been with these people lately, but this isn't the first time they've painted me as a "man-whore" so I had to sit back and think about why this keeps happening. Apparently in telling my new friend about how I wanted to get in her pants, a couple of girls on the team were able to give examples of advances I've made towards them. Their stories were true, I made those advances, so that made it easier to understand why they think this way about me. Then I had to look at myself, why did I make this advances at these girls that I really had no attraction to or interest in? That's where the boredom comes in.
If I don't something interesting about the people I'm interacting with, I'll fallback to something that does interest me, sex. By the time I've decided that sex is the topic of choice, I don't really care about what this person thinks about me so I'll say just about anything though the words carry little weight (at least to me). Unfortunately, that is what's happened with most of the people on this team, thus I have the "man-whore" rep. Not because of any actions, as I haven't hooked up with anyone on the team, but because of talk. The new girl, and even the new guy I had been partnered with at the last tournament, were actually interresting people. I don't have to introduce sex into the conversations with either of them, but because of the rep I have with the rest of the team it's assumed that I'm just talking to her to get in her pants. The sexual conversations also serve as a way to distance these people from me. Since I've keptthem at such a distance, they don't know me, but since I've kept them at a distance through the sexual conversations they've still painted me as a shallow man that only wants sex.
So, to summerize all this: People bore me, sex doesn't. I talk to boring people about sex, and sometimes go to far because I don't care. Keeping the conversations sexual keeps a real relationship from developing with the boring people. In general we like to think we k ow people so we'll use whatever info we have to paint an image of them. The image the boring people have of me is that of a shallow "man-whore."
I've created this world and I have to deal with it. I can't really be upset with these people if I've only let them see just one side of me can I? Guess I'll just have to figure that out myself.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
My best friend.
Tonight, for the first time ever, I needed you and you weren't just a call away.
Miss you man.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Monday, March 1, 2010
"She feel boo's like she bombed at Apollo"
Wow. Even Lauryn Hill got boo'd at one point in her career. She kept it going though. I can't imagine how I would react in her position. She finishes strong though, guess she didn't have much of a choice. Watching that now and knowing what she ended up doing with her career is true inspiration.
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