If I could I would...

Leave.

The first thing I want to do once I have the means, is get out of the Midwest. Honestly, it's not horrible out here, but the small mindedness of small town people closes off a lot of the world to this area. I know there's so much more out there, and I won't be satisfied until I see it. There have been many times where I just wanted to point my car in a certain direction and just go. Unfortunately, my work here is not done, and until it is, I will remain. I'm only able to approach each Midwestern morning with an intense drive because I was California dreaming the night before.

Why California? Why not? Yes, the cost of living and potential job market don't look great, but the culture, change of pace, and scenary create a priceless experience. That's what draws me there.

If I could I would....

For the longest, all I could think of was that phrase "If I could I would," and nothing else. Then I thought about what I want to do more than anything, and leave was the first thing to pop in my head. That's also the most probable thing I could do. Eventually I will leave, and take my talents to the west coast.

Today

As you can tell by the title of the blog, I'm always thinking about tomorrow. Today I was focused in today. I'm in a good place for the most part right now. Opportunities are everywhere and all of them are promising. For the first time in a long time I was able to just sit back and take it all in. It was almost overwhelming. I'm grateful for both the opportunities in my life and the lessons I've learned. This has been a summer of fun, learning, and growth. I'm enjoying every moment of it, and we still have tomorrow...

I got all my sisters and me

I spent more time with family this past weekend than I have all year so far. Both of my sisters were in town from VA and Vegas so my entire weekend was dedicated to them. I cooked, took one of them and her husband on a tour of the city, and got to see my niece dance at church. In 23 years of life, I've never felt closer to my sisters. Growing up I lived with one of my sisters, and the other one lived in Michigan with my brothers and my dad. The sister I lived with was 7 years older than me so we didn't really hang out at all. I was practically an only child, my dad always stressed my relationship with my siblings. He used to tell me that we needed to be close because we would only have each other after he died. At the time of his death, we were closer, but not as close as he would've liked. Since then we've all leaned on each other yet drifted as well. Distance is like termites on the foundation of a relationship. It slowly eats away at it until the foundation itself breaks and the relationship has nothing to support it. This has we're spread out across the country, so distance has definitely been an issue. We're all making an effort to stay in touch through FB groups, texts, calls, etc. But we have our own lives and families as well. We're in a similar situation that the Miami Heat were in this past season. Creating and maintaining a group dymanic with people who have operated as individuals for years. It's not easy. Removing the distance made things so much easier. We were a natural part of each other's lives instead of an interuption. Hopefully this weekend strengthens the foundation enough for us to continue to build better relationships with each other.

The Temptations

Guess who's back...


I don't know how many people still follow this blog, but here's a little nugget for ya...

Anyone who's known me for any length of time knows that my favorite old school group is the Temptations. I really relate to their music even now, and I love their sound. That being said, there's always one thing that has really bothered me about them... The Temptations were always with the times, never ahead. They would keep their ear to the ground to follow the latest trends, but they never set them. That's why when people talk about the great groups from the oldschool they mention Sly and the Family Stone, Earth Wind & Fire, Marvin Gaye, etc. The Temptations had great songs back then, but they're only mentioned as a good group, not a great one.

I say that to say this: I've been different all my life. I've always been an outlier, never one to fit in. I'm not complaining about it because it made me who I am today. It allowed me to develop a comfort in being alone that I wouldn't otherwise have. BUT people who get too comfortable in that role are what we like to call Hermits. I've found that there needs to be a happy medium, and that's what I've been working towards as of late. It's been an interesting journey thus far. A lot has happened since September, and slowly, but surely, I'll fill you in. Until then, enjoy the ride!