Being The Other Man

I'm the one who's there when he's not. Im' the one you come to when you don't want to think about how bad your relationship is or if you just want to forget about the troubles of life. I'm the one you feel no commitment to. I'm the one who only gets parts of you. I'm the reminder of your past who may or may not fit into your future. I'm the ghost that appears in your nightmares and the light that brightens up your day. I'm the one who does it like he never could. I knew you before he did. I loved you before he did. I'm the one who longs for more, but settles for less. I forget my morals and lay them to the side for you. I press my lips against yours, our bodies intertwine like a mosaic of mocha and peach. I make you feel loved, yet make you feel like a whore. I believe the words that come from your mouth because I close my eyes to your actions. I've made the same mistake that many men and women before me have made and I still come back for more. I'm the other man who may never be your only man.

Patterns

We live in a world of patterns and repetition. Fortunately this is something I learned at an early age. I saw the the patterns in my family and in relationships enough where I could usually anticipate the next step someone was going to take per se. I've also come to realize that not everybody gets this.

Invisisble

If I say you're interesting
Then that means I'm interested
Which means that I've been thinking bout the best way to address it
Like a hypothesis I test it
I'm trying not to mess it
Up
But if I don't change the variables results won't be effected
So behind the scenes I stress it
While trying not to let it
Show
But you got me nervous girl, can you detect it?
No
Because your attentions somewhere else and you can't help it

So I'll remeain invisible to the girl who thinks she's invisible
Yeah I'm sounding cynical
But that's because I've been here before
And every time its happened things always end the same
I feel like Alicia Keys and you don't know my name
But this one could different
I won't give up just yet
My heart's my only wager, now I'm going to place the bet

Already?

A couple of weeks ago, I was having a conversation with my friend about relationships. Somehow I brought up the point that people don't know how to really begin new relationships. We have the tendency to want to start new relationships from the same point our old ones ended. Thus giving our new interest the same "benefits" that the old interest had, without the new interest putting in the time. It's comparable to a first year prof getting the same pay and benefits as a tenured professor, it doesn't make sense. We don't see it like that though, we want to maintain that same feeling of comfort and even security that we had in the previous relationship.

Pretty Wings

Jobs, school, and girls those have probably been the most stressful aspects of my life lately. I don't get stressed much at all for the most part, but one big stressor (getting a job) put a few chinks in my armor. Fortunately, things may be turning around :-)